While this quote cannot be found in the Bible, it’s still a good one.
I’ve come to recognize and truly appreciate how distinctive my personal journey has been (and continues to be). If there’s one thing that I’ve learned in the midst of this occasionally bewildering experience, it’s that I’m definitely not lost.
Unconventional? Yes. Some unexpected detours? Without a doubt. But lost? No. Definitely not lost.
I have greater clarity, peace, and sense of purpose today than I ever thought was possible. And I can tell you one more thing: I am not afraid. Let’s be clear – I used to be quite fearful in many respects, and I’ll loud this fear rule more of my life than I would like to admit.
However, here’s the thing about suffering and pain: they makes you confront the things you rather not deal with, and you find yourself faced with a choice: either totally surrendering your fears, hopes, and dreams to God and trusting Him with everything (and I do mean everything), or unwisely continuing on the perilous road on which we were traveling previously.
Not totally consciously, I elected to hand things over to God (lots of painful things were happening around the same time, so the memories are a bit hazy). Thankfully, though, the choice I made was the right one; and while it’s taken awhile to work through all of the difficulty and extract the important life lessons from it, I believe that I have finally done so.
Naturally, there is so much more that I have yet to learn. This is a lifelong journey where God is teaching me day-by-day that which I need to know, in order to draw closer to Him. Everything else, really, is secondary.
So no – I’m not lost; I’m also not afraid anymore. And that’s quite a bit of growth for one person to experience in the past year, by the grace of God! I’m still learning, but I can honestly say I’m not the person I was even a year ago. And that’s what growing is all about, isn’t it? The moment we stop growing, we begin to stagnate. And I never want that (stagnation) to happen.
Dear God, I thank You that this journey that I’ve been on has been carefully designed and directed by You. While others may not understand or fully appreciate where I am headed, that’s okay! I have learned from the past, am experiencing peace in my present, and I am looking to You in hope for my future. The way I see it, as long as You’re with me and I trust You to take care of me, then I’m going to be just fine. Blessed assurance, indeed! In Your name I pray, Amen.